Remember how I feel old?

Babies babies babies everywhere!
I swear, everyone in my life is either pregnant, is having babies, or is talking about their babies!
All around me, babies!
I am so happy for all my friends who are having their sweet little babies...I really am!
I love that so many of my friends get to be moms.  I love that so many of my friends get to be dads.
I love that so many good people are having babies and becoming parents. 
I can't think of better people to be having families and raising children.  How lucky this world is that so many amazing people are choosing to be parents!  How happy it makes me for those sweet little children to be blessed by such fabulous people as their parents!  How glad I am that these people are sacraficing for something greater than what the world says they should do!  
I'm truly so excited for them!

I'm just not sure how I am supposed to see my life in comparison. 
Because though I hate comparing, it is so easy to do, so seemingly appropriate.
I'm hundreds of millions of miles away from having babies.
I'm not even sure babies are in my future...who knows what the future holds?
My life is so different from so many of my friends these days and it makes me feel a little...weird, old, left behind, on the wrong path, frustrated, discontent, and defiant.
Being my age and single is not the easiest thing in the world, but sometimes I think it is not so bad.
Sometimes I think it sucks.  Big time. 
Sometimes I think I like it, a lot.  More than the alternative.
Sometimes I don't really care either way.

Life sure is crazy.
Figuring it out is even stranger.