Working Out

Sometimes it is so hard for me not to take life so seriously. 

Not that life isn't serious, because it is!, but not everything in life has to feel so drastic and final!  Sometimes I forget that life is also supposed to be fun, adventurous, and spontaneous. 

I've never done spontaneity well. 

I like plans.  I like calendars.  I like schedules and deadlines. 

I like things to be clear, defined, expressive, blunt, and finalized. 

I'm still a dreamer.  I'm an "ideas person" even.  But, I tend to believe that those dreams and ideas can become reality with a plan and a purpose.

I often forget that some things in life are supposed to take time.  They are supposed to take some feeling out, some research, some patience.  I've recently been made more aware of all this.

What's funny is that I am actually a very patient person.  The things that make me impatient tend to be the things for which there is no plan, no direction, or in which I am walking completely blind. 

This makes faith and trust pretty tough for me.  I've worked on this.  I've learned to strengthen faith, to build trust, to look for ways to deal with the present, instead of trying to see the future all the time.  In doing so, I've learned a lot about myself, my expectations, my abilities, and my strengths.  Living in the present is not always a bad thing.  Often, it is the only way to keep sane!

Life is serious, but life is also an adventure.  All the ups and downs, confusions, wonderings, blurry options, and shaky steps are what make us stronger human beings!  I've never realized how weak I am, but I am training and building the strength I need to be better.